: because i ♥ pink

being a girl, not just a girl but too gurlishh is fun! pink is all about my favourite, doesn't matter what it is.. as long as its  'pink'  its all loved ♥!

♥ once again its pink ♥

♥ will never get away with Pink ♥
♥ neither do i get sick with it ♥

♥ hahaha! im so obsessed with all sort of pink stuff.. lol ♥

♥ its super makes me go huuhuuhuu! Pink! ♥

♥ Room to be complete re-furnish so soon ♥

♥ dont be jealous yer!! hahaha! ♥ 

♥ that sickening girl of yours PinkLover ♥

  

                                                             

-sorrow of my life-

things happens so sudden.. it started with a good freshly lively day but ended up with a black yucky day..never as expected.

                                                                     (27/04/2011)

yeahh.. i give blood. it was my 1st time donating my blood. im lucky to have such a good HB level which was13.9. and i feel so ..?? hmmm.. well just giving it a try . hahaha. and i donated it sincerely from my heart.

after awhile, hmmm.. bf spotted something which is obviously so obvious that anyone could barely see from their open eyes. not to be mention what was that.. but something must have went wrong somewhere..?? hahaha.. mysteriously 1 sided is smaller then the other.. infact the side that became smaller was the hand that i use for donation.. well till today after i've consulted my dr its still remain to be unexplained. (to be watch & observe) because it wasnt the effect after donation.. well it totally doesn't make sense.? lol.

went to vivo for dinner with dear spending my whole afternoon with him was kinda boring but it was fun having him with me around. clock strikes 6pm, we make our way home by taking bus. all was his idea. and wasted almost 2hr journey just to be home .by then it's already 8pm when i reached home..

nasib tk nasib la yer... yg kene marah tu aku bkn kaw..!!

Stepped into the house with frustration seeing father with his idiotic face.. where i go , what i do , when i finish work.. blahh...blahh....blahh... its so irritating.! i cried when he uses words that makes me so upset & really hurt was when he started to accuse me by doing things that i've never done! how dare you! is that what he call advise?? OhhMyfuckingDamnGod! that is not called advise, that is accusing ! you bodoh!

come on la father, you can go on listening to your irritating wife and carry on doing things that you think you are right but i'm wrong~ like as always.. by all means i simply cant be bothered ! i know where i stand unlike my other sisters they have their own life because they choose that way. yahyah!

yg jahat kaw puji yg baek kaw pijak? sial!

well no matter what they are your parents kn..?? yer ure rite dear!

 im waiting & yet still waiting for the right time to come..

 still waiting... & will continue waiting...

Spoilt Bratzz!

(ayuz-photography)

From today on, i superly hates toodler! all because i have too much of bad exprience taking care and growing up my younger siblings & niece. its such a hassle to have them being part of my responsibility. apart of that, it makes me feel so hatred towards that person. the more she stays here, the more she grows the more i hate her! OMGoodness! sometimes i know its not her fault, its not her choice of being here in this sinful world.. but its not her mum that brings her up, its my family. But why?" why" on earth she behaves like an Idiot?? she is a total Idiot! a girl age 4 can behave like a snake with 2 headed?? WTF??????

wait till my father die, we shall see how & who is going to bring u up because, i've always hate u, will never wanna accept you in my life. this is just your luck , lucky enough that you have a grandfather to care for you & to love you, which is equivalent to " giving you face and spoil you!"

Kecik tk kecik, aku tk peduli! Kaw dh melampau!

Just because dad sides you, even My adik tk salah pun kene marah! Sial nyer budak!

♥ nothing is ever like yesterday.

Boring ~

Plan of the day;

Plan 1: girls out to MBS with sis ain & amma on Good friday. -X Cancelled 

Plan 2: Out with Bf & kiddis to Swimming - X Cancelled

Plan 3: aku tdo lagy baek!

What a day, Ibu spoilt my plan. and the Rain causes plan to be cancelled...

im Pissed off ... brrrrrr! so we stayed at home thruout the day watching Music tv, dancing around with loud Speakers tune blast! hahha and played *Poker  Card* poker pun poker la.. hahaha

well... home without parents is always the best! no pet-pot-pet-pot.. lol..

all thks to Nashir my beloved bf for being here to entertain me & spending boredness together... im blessed to have him around....

well... now its almost 7pm. lets take a bath. heehee..

adios....

♥ well its me, Ayu ... nothing is new...

hmmm.. sometimes things are better left unsaid.. 

writing stories about your life eg; what you hate, what you love & even things that you do into a small note is never safe! so the best way is  "things are better left unsaid & kept it as your secret of life."

im pretty much getting used to this. but by doing so might endanger myself & could even put myself into trouble. because 1st of all.. i've never learn my lesson. lose my E63 handphone with alot of my secrets is one of my biggest mistakes.! & left my daily calender note book on the table containing alot of my daily information is making me a suicidal!

well now... it happens again.....

due to that i think its better off for me to destroy my note book & reset my hp notes.

because its never a good thing when you wrote a bad things. prior to that people will know everything about your life. be it good or bad. everyone have their own confidentiality...

Everyone is respected if they respects me well.. 

Respect it when someone says its confidential.

 dont ever try to digg things out ,

 because you'll make me hate you forever!

♥ my quote: ♥

Its You! Yes ! you! ♥

i hate it when a guy get really obsessed with a girl. come on la.. get a life. im right here trying to make an achievements and there you go blocking my way! WTH?? wth is this dear? you are like being a tail of my Ass! please change your behaviour. im never the less leaving you OKAY? i need a break ! i needed it too.. and Please, you wont die without seeing me one day. its a lie even if you say so!

The Meaning Of Life

I was once a girl that never wana use my brain to think of the good ways. Infact i've took the wrong path. I destroyed my teenage life without moving life with good thoughts & memories.... After awhile i started to change since i met this guy called -Nasir-. He changed my life, he changed everything. he makes me grow to be a better person. All he could always say is - think before you do it-. Mistakes can be learn but repeated mistakes are not forgiven. -Yes good enough Ayu deserve to be treated that way!-

Im glad, bless & blissful to have a man like him. hoping that he can understand me & accept me for who i am..


thank you for loving me my dear -nasir-

its a DESIGN tissue. bought it from MiniToons

this is to be kept as a remembrance i suppose? haha. well....

-Love one another-

Left me for w0rk, this is what i felt.

When he is off to work while im home with family, im so distress. it feels like part of me is so empty. thats when i miss you so much. Ohh please, how i wish there is no Day & Night. so that i can be with you throughout the whole entire life. heehee. ♥

Dear-dear, im so gona be happy if my wish granted by dad & mum just to meet you the next day, picking you back from work, i'll be pleasant to do so....

 Play slide la at T3, mesti best.! because there's still 19 coins left in my pocket full of poise.. teehee

♥ see you soon sayang.

    ♥ XOXO ♥

hidden lies ♥

Smiling doesn't mean im happy, happy doesn't mean im enjoying, enjoy doesn't mean i would forget everything. when Happiness takes place it does not mean that i've forgotten what's happening behind this facade of joy. You can never see me in a situation with stress, hatred, sad & lost along the way. unless if u are unfortunate enough to face my outcome behaviours.

hidden lies, hidden truth are all kept beyond the exposure. but at the end of the day, no more secrets to be reveal. otherwise you are caught red handed! and so thats it.. the Smile will turn into a dusky awful blended face.

HAHAHA! trust me you will see it oneday.

BRAIN-CRACK!!

♥ We fight, we break, we make up & we make love. I will never wana end our peaceful relationship that has moved on since years ago. the best love of all! is the best of how you choose to change for the better.! however for all we've been thru is a challenge & patience that we face together.

♥ Now that we're 2 going 3 year's in 09.12.2011. the new challenge is along the way:) future is what we are planning for. its though, its hard & its full of stress. i admit that im half way giving up. but motivations from you that keeps me moving on. Finally date has been set, and we are almost there to the mid line and another steps to the finishing line:) as we suggested 13.12.11 will be our engagement day:)as my birthday will fall on the same day as our engagement date:)

♥ so how?? are you ready for it my dear?

The Best Love ♥

Went to Ehub! Bowling again..! we was so happy that finally we got the chance to put on a pair of new bowling shoes:) eventhough it wasn't our own bowling shoes. blahh..blahh.blahh... same activity every weekend, as it was raining heavily. i've always been having so much fun spending my days, time & weekends with you. my only love & forever. can never be saperated by me ♥

WHEN YOU WALK OUT OF MY LIFE.

never always depends on someone you LOVE. Becausse someone you LOVE may walk out of your life at any moment, leaving a scare/a punched of hole on your chest. Leaving you crying thinking of that one you always love, that person who have leaved you behind with a broken hearted. thats when a person decided to change its mind, thinking that giving it a chance to Love someone elses may turn bad as bad as what you felt before. as a result, thinking that everyone is no difference:)



Let the past burn out of your life, and set a new Leaf- lead your life with a fresh new start. believe in giving yourself a chance to make the changes right:)